A couple of days ago, I was sitting on my board out in the water, waiting for a good wave to come in, looking at the landscape -- which is more deeply embedded in my psyche each day -- and realized that I could be truly happy living in Dunedin. The town and surrounding countryside, the schools for the kids, the outdoor adventure, the list goes on.
Montana offers the same ingredients, plus family, and a deep, longstanding connection. We went to see True Grit the other night, and the shots of the mountainous, arid American West made me long for home. Still, I am captured by the new places and experiences to be had here. Watching the ocean swell and wind and imagining which beach has the best waves, then going there (often to a little-visited spot) and either being right or wrong, but no matter what finding myself in a remarkable place, and getting some exercise to boot: this has become a joyful activity for me, and I fear that I will miss dearly.
The human individual falling in love with a place on the earth is an interesting phenomena. I have a deep love of Montana, so I know the sensation, but it's an old love, and I don't remember it happening. Here in Dunedin I can watch myself.
What are the ingredients of love of place? It'll be different for everyone. For me, natural beauty is a primary ingredient. I find myself saying frequently here, `This must be the most beautiful place on earth.' But then immediately, 'Though the weather leaves something to be desired.' This juxtaposition defines Dunedin somehow. It keeps the hordes away, makes the people a little grumpy, but also keeps an excess of pretention at bay, leaving room for a wide range of folks. Given my roots in Butte, for me to love a town, it needs to have 'grit', and Dunedin definitely does.
Coming here, I wanted new experiences and have gotten them. What I didn't consider was that I might build a way of life unique to this place, tied to the landscape, and that I would not want to leave it behind. I fear that this will be the case. Alas, I can't live in two places at once. But we must open ourselves to love, even though loss and a broken heart are then inevitable.